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Every time I give a talk (even a 10 minute one) I feel absolutely destroyed afterwards! There is a rawness in me that can make me cry. And I still haven’t learned how to deal with it.

It sits in my stomach and owns me. It’s trying to burst through and determine how I feel for the rest of the day.

Maybe it’s a connection to my vulnerability. It’s the experience that after I have been sharing something personal, after I opened myself up, let people in and see who I am. And then it is over.  And I have no control afterwards what they will do with it.

There is always the temptation that this moments defines you. Maybe I am judging myself to hard. Being too critical instead of being kind to myself.

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